Lather Rinse Repeat

Another week, another check in with my weight.  OK so this is only my second week as part of the healthy you challenge but sometimes I feel like this entire blog reads as lose a little weight, lose a little more, regain all the weight and some more, lose some weight, regain that and end up heavier than before, again.  Lather rinse repeat.

I'd make blase promises about this time being the last time and all that jazz but I've done all that before too and failed there too - just click on the "losin it" category over there on the right, it's all there.

I am feeling a lot better than I have been lately and finished the course of Abx this lunchtime.  I restarted my antidepressant last week and am slowly feeling better there too.  A couple more days and I'll be up to one capsule daily.  Screwed up the courage to talk to someone about making some changes in certain areas to reduce the "argh" factor and I have options and am thinking about it so thats better too.

My mood and my physical health both play a factor in how well I do (or don't do) at maintaining, controlling and ultimately losing weight.  So it's all important and I should/could keep track of it to help.

I managed exercise twice in this last week (one of which was today) and I lost another 2lb for 4lb in total.  I'm pleased.

Wake Me Up When September Ends...

OK so it's tacky as hell but I just had to get that title in for a journal entry at least one time this month.  And it's apt today because I feel like I have very little energy.  I did start taking the Abx this morning and I also spent most of it in bed.

Today is the check in day for the Healthy You Challenge run by Scale Junkie and this is my first week as a member of that challenge.  And before I've even updated for it or anything some people have already come by and said Hi so thanks for all the messages.  I'm looking forward to getting round some of the blogs and meeting some new people.  Some inspiration and support would definitely not go amiss either.

Having lost 2lb last week (and 2lb in total, last week being my first week) and with knowing that I'm unlikely to do great this week due to feel grotty my goal is to remain the same weight.  I do plan to try to stay really on target over the next couple of days but it's not easy when you don't feel good.  Even though I do feel better than I did.  Maybe a few days more on target would mean I could lose another lb by the time I weigh on Friday but I'm not holding my breath...

Plans for next week?  Get some exercise in starting Saturday or before if I'm up to par before then.

Thanks for the welcome to the challenge and for the messages guys, it's really appreciated - and helpful too.

Progress Report

I lost 2lb this week.  Which makes all the effort worth it.

Only I'm not 100% sure that I actually did lose 2lb this week.  I can't stand unsupported but i literally had one finger on the grab rail in my bathroom and someone stood behind me just in case I went.  The scales couldn't make up there mind how much I weighed but taking the highest of the numbers it flickered between I've lost 2lb.

Oh and my snazzy spreadsheet I set up (which actually does work, it seems) tells me just losing those 2lb dropped my bmi 0.3 points and I nearly lost a whole kilo.

I'm pleased, CP frustrations aside.

And after five updates to this blog in two days, I think I will leave well alone for a while.

Five Days, Done. And Thoughts. And Sailing.

Five days of no coke and no chocolate, done (Gordon Ramsay stylee today).  

It's definitely getting easier although I do feel a little headachy now.  I need to be a little better at pushing water tomorrow.  I've spent a lot of today and yesterday being busy and doing stuff which I'm very pleased about - it makes me feel productive and like I've achieved a lot.  But leaves less time for drinking.  Usually I have a bottle of coke on my desk so I drink without making any effort but no coke means having to go to the kitchen so I don't drink as much or as often.  Something to work on.

The post fairy should be visiting a few people sometime next week. I wrote and sent a few cards this morning.  I love doing that.  It's the first time in a long time I've done a load of physical writing in one go and I'd forgotton just how much it makes my hand ache.  My creative writing class/group should be starting on Thursday and that makes me a little more apprehensive then I was (I had notetakers at uni and a laptop whilst at college and school) but I'm sure it should be fine.

Really would rather be staying at home tomorrow morning to watch Jeremy Kyle and work on my braiding than going to the bureau.  But unless this beginnings of a cold which I've had for over a week suddenly hits me over night, in the bureau I shall be.  I developed a bit of a thing for crappy day time tv and crafts of a morning over the last week or so.

Had a very brief sail this evening which felt brief but probably wasn't.  The sun was setting and it was spectacular.  Must make sure to bring my camera next week.  Technically I am trying to spend more time in the moment than capturing it from behind a lens but sometimes you've gotta get the picture and share the beauty, y'know.

I thought tonight would be the last sail of the year but apparently we will go next week.  It's getting dark so early now though that I suspect that really will be it.  I will miss sailing over the winter months but there also something quite nice about taking the break - curling up in the warm over the winter and chilling out and then seeing each other again, getting back into it and rekindling friendships once spring comes.  

Part of that though is that I know I'll still have my evenings swim once a week ( we're switching to a Tues soon I think) and I start creative writing soon (Thursday this week!) so there will be two nights a week out of the house, like always.  I will miss the people and the sailing during our "off" months.  But I won't be bored and I'll still be plenty busy.

Day Three (in the big brother house)

OK so it's not the big brother house but whenever I think about what day I'm on in my healthy eating I always hear it in the way they say it on Big Brother you know that geordie bloke - "Day Three" - despite it being several years since I've actually properly watched Big Brother.  I'm keeping on keeping on and that, really, is the best I can say about attempts at health today.

Oh actually I know what I wanted to note and that was that I had anticipated being headachy and grouchy today as a cafeine withdrawal thing, it usually kicks in as bad as it'll get around day three which is why I gave it up with a Thursday as the last day so that if I had to feel lousy I would feel lousy on the weekend.  Here's hoping it doesn't prove me wrong and hit me tomorrow or Tuesday because I will be a busy girlie those days.

I spent some time reading the early archives of PastaQueen's blog earlier as an inspirational or encouragement thing (not sure which) when I was really wanting, instead, to go to the shop for treats.  What I really want now, however, is her book.  And hearing my sister (who is sick with a cold) go on about how much she wanted chocolate on the phone earlier didn't bother me too much either.

Baby steps.

This is it

Haven't been anywhere nearly the scales for a few weeks what with one thng or another.  But last night I did.  I've decided that Friday evenings will be weigh day from now on for many reasons.  And because it was the first evening I won't share the change - it was a little higher which given I usually weigh first thing isn't surprising.  Also given the craziness of the last week whilst I did expect the change in time to affect my weight I also expected it to be higher than it was as I made no effort to diet or otherwise exercise/control my eating last weekend.  So overall I was pleased.

Now.  This is the crazy thing.  I decided earlier this week that after Thursday I was going to give up chocolate and coke for a while.  Not for ever because that obviously is unrealistic but for a few weeks - I need to break the addiction and try to be much healthier in my eating in order to lose weight and be healthier overall.  There is soime debate amongst my friends and family whether they agree with this idea or not but I think it is a good thing.  This is day two and it's going ok.

I managed breakfast every day for 11 days and water before every meal for ten days and two meals - that went wrong when we went to the Knitting and Stitching Show and then I just gave up on both.  I plan to revisit them soon  as I do think both goals were very worthy ones are were doing me a lot of good.  I just hadn't quite gotten into the habit and forgot all about it when out and about.

30 day challenge

Yes it's late and my back hurts and my legs hurt and I don't feel great and should be in bed.  But I only got home a little after 11 and unless it's literally the middle of the night I'm one of those people who needs to unwind before bed.

And I just wanted to share here that I'm doing a 30 day challenge thing.  I've set myself two goals for the month of September - to drink a glass of water before every single meal and to eat breakfast every day.  And I've kept that up for five days so far!  It's a bit of a drag and remember to drink water is difficult but I can already tell that it's doing me good.

Both of those goals are on my 101 in 1001 list and I am determined to see them through and get them ticked off.  I think I'll probably be going 101/1001 crazy over the next couple of months because the 1001 days end somewhere towards the beginning for December - I forget the exact date without looking it up.

I guess thats why they call it the blues

I gained four whole lb this week.

Not really sure what happened there.

Mum wondered if it was a hang over from the week before when I expected to gain but managed to maintain; she said that my Dad usually gains weight the week after he splurges rather than that week.

It might be a period thing also.  It's due sometime soon although I'm not quite sure when (unusual for me) as they are spacing out a bit more.  This is not a good thing from a PMS point of view - I cope much better when I know it's coming and also I usually figure out exactly when it's coming the day before because of my emotions and mental state.

But four lb?!  That's *practically* all the weight I had lost. :(

Yes, I've got the blues this evening.

Holding Steady

I obviously didn't weigh myself last week due to being at Rutland and doing all sorts of regatta related things.  So when I weighed myself this morning it was two weeks since my last date with the scales.

And I've stayed the same weight.

Which actually was my goal and I am very pleased with.

Eating last weekend was very nice but not very good if that makes sense and this week has been better but no where near fabulous or even really what it needs to be it seems for me to lose weight.  But I held steady amongst all that and that is in no way a small achievement.  I'm not sure that makes sense to many people reading this but its what I wanted to do and I'm very pleased.

Oh and after a week of very sore shoulder following all the sailing it seems a lot better.  I wheeled myself a chunk when we were in Oxford on Thursday (not a lot, probably less than half) and it was easy and relatively pain free so that was great.  I wonder now if actually all I needed to do was loosen it up properly.  But when I couldn't wheel around the house without it hurting pushing myself literally and figuratively to go the distance and get moving felt beyond me.  Still that's something I shall have to bare in mind for future reference.

I plan to get my weights out later and also do some standing stretches.  Gotta get going with some exercise again now.

But for the moment, lunch.

And for my next trick...

I've lost another 3lb this week for a total of 5lb lost in two weeks.

Yup, I'll definitely take that!

And I'm half a lb away from the next stone mark (as in at the moment I weigh X stone 0.5 and when that's gone I'll weigh Y stone whatever).  Definitely looking forward to that too.

But I really must get some exercise in this week.  Haven't done any real exercise this week although being in my quickie rather than the jazzy when out all day on Wednesday probably helped a bit.  I did get the journeycare staff at all four (!) stations I was at to push me on and off of the trains and they did push me a tiny bit in some of them.  I did do a fair bit though, particularly at MK and coventry and of course wheeled myself around at the focus group.  Most importantly I didn't eat any chocolate on any of the trains or at all on Wednesday.

2

I made a small start back on the weight loss thing this week.  I've lost 2lb.  It's a start and I'll take it.

But I can't help thinking that I have a hell of a long way to go.  And I do.  I need to lose at least 70lb, more like 100lb.  I'd be happy with 70lb though.

Actually, screw that.  I'd just be happy if I could stop gaining weight.  Three stone this year is a ridiculous amount of weight to have gained and yet I gained it, just like that *snap*.

If only I could lose it just like that *snap*.

Still, 2lb.  I'll take it and I'll be pleased.