A bit of bad news and very high pain levels led to an accidental 3 hour nap and my not being my usual self.
I should be
I should be writing
I should be sleeping
I should be doing the washing.
I should be doing my physio.
I should be sending emails
Exercising, knitting or reading a book.
There are many things
I should be doing
But I'm not
I'm sat here
Back hurts
Spasming muscles
And spasticity
In my legs
Like you
Wouldn't believe
Bad news hits
My mood is
Sad.
But meds mean
I'm not in bits
Without them
I'd really be that
Bad.
My body hurts
One way
My mind
Another
Both conspire
To stop me
In my tracks
Suddenly both
Motivation
And
Ability
I lack
So yes
I should be bettering myself
I should be going to the bank
I should be visiting friends
I should be productive
I should be hundreds of things
And right now I'm not.
My conditions
Are permanent
Today is bad
Tomorrow may
Be good
Not should
Just could
No guarantees
And not choice for me
The list is
Ignored
It'll wait till
Then
I focus on
One
I should be
...
LIVING
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