I've been wanting to write I really have. But with the way my depression crashed in and hit me I was fine if I had to leave the house and go somewhere for a set time, that I could do. If it was something I had to do in my house like stick some clothes in to wash and something I needed to do but not at a set time that was a huge struggle. And sadly, my lack of motivation extended even as far as writing.
But, on Monday I put fingers to keyboard once again and started typing. Slowly but within minutes I was wondering why I'd put it off for so long. I enjoyed it. And it was easy and flowing and rewarding just like it used to be. My depression induced writers block melted away like an ice cube on a hot sunny day.
Writing really is one of my passions and I hate it when that's taken away from me - for whatever reason. I'm very happy that I've got my meds sorted out and four weeks later they are working well. I'm finding myself again. I'm rediscovering my passions. And most of all I'm writing and working towards my dream of one day being good enough to have a book published.
It's a very good feeling, especially after so many bleak and dark weeks.
5 comments:
ICLW (and following!)
Glad your block has dissolved. Do you find writing when the blackdog turns up helpful, or do you find it focuses you on the crap thoughts for longer than strictly necessary?
I don't have a diagnosed depressive illness nor have sought treatment, so I can't speak/write from that perspective, but I know I always write loads more when I'm going through a bad time to when things are good.
Thank you for visiting and commenting on my blog. I totally understand about having depression induced writer's block. That happened to me a few weeks ago. I had started four entries and deleted all of them becuase I couldn't focus, but sometimes we just have to power through and write something :)
My challenges with anxiety usually manifests itself when I find myself in an overwhelming situation. Mostly if I'm put in a situation where I have to be social with new people.
I see that you are from Oxford. My husband and I lived there for 3 years. I miss it so much.
Jonelle (new follower)
ICLW #11
That's wonderful to hear!
I go through some periods of no writing and I make sure not to beat myself up over it because then I just add guilt which makes me not do it for even longer!
I try to trust myself to return whenever I'm ready.
But, like you, it's something that I love and crave so much. I've always liked the Isaac Asimov quote, "I write for the same reason I breathe, if I didn't I would die."
Glad you're writing again.
Are you planning on participating in the NaNoWriMo Camp (or whatever it's called) in July?
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