I've had a good few days with many happy moments and special times that were special for no apparent reason other than the fact they were and that I am working on trying to find "joy in the mundane" at the moment. but i am so frustrated right now,
And I know that the reasons behind my frustrations actually don't matter. BUt I can't leave my frustration behind and move on. Which just frustrates me more. I usually blame my depression for the whole caught in a negative circle of thoughts thing. Thinking about it though it's not that now. I'm not sure it ever is or was either.
Add in something I got told today and it makes it tougher.
The thing I wanted to do will more than likely happen just in a completely different way to how I wanted/expected to do. I should focus on the"it's pretty much going to happen" but instead I'm annoyed and frustrated by the "happening in a different way and not by my choice." Frustrating myself by being frustrated too.