Twentyfive years and my life is still...

Yes, this is a third update for today. I've been wanting to share this song since the weekend and figured I should "Just Do It" as they say on the Nike adverts. When I was in a huge stress on Saturday night about my powerchair breaking I posted on Yahoo! Answers asking about good songs for frustrating times. I got so many answers and they were all really quick... and I have Y!M so get instant alerts when I get e-mail to that account. It kept chiming one after the other for ages... that cheered me up a lot too.

You can read my question and the answers here and if you haven't tried Yahoo Answers yet you should, it's really fun.

Knowing that my wheelchair was out of action and (at the time) believe it was beyond repair shock me up sooo much. If you don't use a chair it's hard to understand. Honestly, it hut physically and took away my freedom so much that I felt like my legs had been cut off. My actual legs don't work but take away my wheels and I can't cope. I don't know how I kept it together that night. I certainly couldn't the next day!

Anyways the songs suggested are all great but one of them - What's Going On by 4 Non Blondes - is an old favourite which I'd forgotten about. It strikes me as appropriate to my life, particularly at the moment and I figured I would share it here.

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destinationI realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar.

And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's going on?<

And I say: HEY! yeah yeaaah, HEY yeah yea
I said hey, what's going on?

And I say: HEY! yeah yeaaah, HEY yeah yea
I said hey, what's going on?

ooh, ooh ooooooooooooooooh
ooh, ooh ooooooooooooooooh

and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution

And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution.

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying bed
Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar

And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

ooh, ooh ooooooooooooooooh ooooooooooooooooh

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination
mmh mh