I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last few days. Especially yesterday. And I've come to some conclusions and some realisations. Mostly good, but a few not so good. I set myself a few goals and I think maybe I'm getting out of this rut again but then again I always think I'm getting out of it and I never actually seem to completely get out of it.
Still I've put the wheels in motion for a few things...
one of my goals was to be the best CAB adviser I can and I certainly feel like I did that one justice today. I worked with three clients this afternoon, I can't remember the last time I did three face to face clients in one day. I felt like they all went well and I recognised some of the more hidden aspects with one client, and didn't allow the tears of another to fluster me.
We also had a different supervisor to usual and I had a great chat with her about things in general and with my CAB work. She paid me a compliment on my case notes and gave me some encouragement. I also mentioned the fact that I believe my biggest issue holding me back there at the moment. (In my life as a whole, actually) is my confidence. I need to find a way to believe in myself more. If only that were easy.
I've also been thinking a lot about happiness in general and the people in my life... I think there is someone who comes accross as a great friend, is a lovely person but who stresses me out and without meaning to gets me down with her jokey/not so jokey comments. I've realised now that it's not ok that happens. I should have realised it a lot sooner but that's ok. Hopefully it won't take me as long to come to a conclusion as to a course of action about it!