Tuesday, 7 August 2007

Unlucky for some...

...not for me!

It's week thirteen of the May Day Challenge.

And I am down another 3lb for a total of ONE STONE!! (14lb!!!)

Body image and our view of ourselves is a strange thing sometimes.

Yesterday was a fat day, I felt and looked (to me at least) really fat. But it was also a day when it became obvious to me how much weight I truly have lost.

The day before I went on holiday I had a bit of a panic about not having enough cool clothes to take. So I went to Sainsburys and I bought two pairs of shorts, an 18 and a 20. I never actually wore them because it wasn't overly warm but I did try them on.

The 20's fitted me fine, they were wearable if not fabulous in fit (I suspect a 22 would have been too big). The 18's I could do up but they cut into me and I couldn't breathe. So I called that as them not fitting (progress! previously it would of been "of course they fit, damn it")

Last week I wore my brown shorts (the bigger ones) a few times and they weren't fitting well. I'm so used to clothes not fitting because they are slightly small that I assumed that's what it was. Not a happy thought. But I then realised that they were actually slipping down because they were too loose!

I fished my smaller ones out and I wore them yesterday for the first time. I've got them on now too. They fit, they are comfortable and they look good.

When I got to yesterday evening still wearing them, still comfortable - that's when I realised that my body image is messed up and whilst I am fat, I'm not that fat. Not any more!

And, I hope and pray, never again.

8 comments:

JanB said...

Hooray on the clothing issue!! I love it when I can fit into a new size. This morning I noticed that my underwear was really too loose. Way too loose. I love that. It's certainly not effortless, but isn't it worth it? Losing weight, I mean?

MamaBearJune said...

SWEET! That's awesome, Emma. Keep up the good work!

Trina said...

Woo Hoo! Dontcha love it when that happens?? I've noticed lately that I'm exactly the same way. I look in the mirror and no matter how much I've lost I keep seeing the same "fat person" .......I have trouble seeing the loss UNTIL I try on clothes.....

I actually just finished rummaging through a huge pile in my room that I'd forgotten about. Most likely shoved them in a corner because they were too tight. There were TONS with tags on them and I honestly haven't tried them all on BUT I'm wearing a pair of shorts that was NWT's I bought years ago and a top that I hadn't worn for years either......

I think we need to play dress up more often ;0)

Great job! Keep up the good work!

Trina

denise said...

You are doing really great.

Michelle said...

Getting into smaller clothes is the best--and good motivation! It sounds like you are doing great. Keep on truckin'

JHS said...

CONGRATULATIONS! Wonderful. The mind is indeed a strange thing when it comes to body image. I wrote about that this week, too.

windy said...

Conrats emma!!! Keep up the good work. I will keep you in my thoughts as we all challenge our weight.

Thea said...

Congrats on the loss! And good job on the pants. Very satisfying feeling, isn't it! Good luck this week.

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