Letter to My Gran

Darling Dearest Granny,

You used to use one or the other of those greetings when you would write me letters and I thought I would use both to start this letter to you. You were both of those things to me and so much more. More than I could ever express on paper or to someone who didn't know you and didn't know all the wonderful little and big things that made you who you were, who you ARE. My Darling Dearest Granny.

You've been on my mind a lot lately. Because you being you allowed me to do something that I've wanted to do for a long while. And if it wasn't for that it wouldn't have happened. I actually feel really guilty about that but don't worry I know you wouldn't want me too.

Of course I would give anything in the world to have you here with me instead of that - even if only for one more day. Unfortunately that can't be and truly I would never wish you back because I know you wouldn't want that.

Thank you for my new Powerchair Granny. I love it and I love you even more than that. I hope you realise that you are here with me and I think of you every time I use it. Please tell Grandad that I love him too and I'm sorry, so sorry that I can no longer use the powerchair he helped me to get. Again, I know he wouldn't want that but I can't help feeling that way.

How I wish you were here.

I have tears streaming down my face as I write this. Missing you, missing the rest of my family who has gone on before.

How I long for the day when we meet again.

How I wish that I can make you proud.

How I miss the hugs and the laughter and the kisses and the chocolate and spam sandwiches and millions of other things.

Thank you Granny for teaching me and loving me and most of all for being you.

You'll be in my heart.

Lots and Lots of Love, always and forever and then lots more love than that,

Emma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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