Basically the previous post is protected because I know that a couple of people vaguely involved with the situation read my blog occasionally. And also I don't want random strangers reading it. It's not a big deal just a me ranting away about something and being paranoid about who is reading that particular rant.
If I am happy for you to read I will give you the password. Basically if you're not Sair, Shi, Chana or Soph you're not getting it but you can ask and I might give it to you.
I still feel relatively crap physically but less crap than I did so life is better.