I have abandoned the 100 poems challenge for the time being I guess I'll restart it in a week or two. I'll have to start from 0 again but thats ok the key is less stress NOW.
And it seems that one of my decsions has been made for me but thats ok too and actually helpful. Basically they are going to try to find a new secretary for the access group or at least someone to help me out with it. Its tough but when Ted asked if I wanted him to find someone else I couldn't say no, didn't have it in me topretend I'm coping w/ it any more. He made the comment that its too much for me but I wouldn't say that, just its more to do than i was led to believe and that +depression is not a good combination.