Thursday 29 June 2006

Better Things

My training review thing went better than I expected. I had thought I still had part of my training paperwork and tore my house apart looking for it. Turns out when I gave it to my tutor to check last time she only returned some of it - which I could/did find so that was fine!

Some of our discussion was tough but I was able to deal with it rationally and see more of the truth in what she was saying/how I could deal/should deal with the issues to allow me to grow and learn some more. I can see a world of difference in how I acted/who I was back when I first started and how/who I am now.

My counselling is going well. It surprises me... I am recognising issues now that I didn't know I had. Oh, I knew but I didn't KNOW. Hopefully now I can start creeping forwards slowly, slowly, slowly, oh so slowly. Softly, softly catchee monkey as they say. I do feel better for being able to find the strength sit there and say those things to her, to admit them to her and me. I'm not as strong as I seem.

And because I haven't done this for a while and it's not over until the fat lady sings... lets end it with a song.
Better Things ~ Dar Williams


Here's wishing you the bluest sky
and hoping something better comes tomorrow.
Hoping all the verses rhyme
and the very best of choruses to
follow all the doubt and sadness.
I know that better things are on their way.Here's hoping all the days ahead
won't be as bitter as the ones behind you.
Be an optimist instead
and somehow happiness will find you.
Forget about what happened yesterday
I know that better things are on their way.
It's really good to see you rockin' out and havin' fun.
Living like you've just begun.
Accept your life and what it brings.
I hope tomorrow you find better things.
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.


Here's wishing you the bluest sky
and hoping something better comes tomorrow.
Hoping all the verses rhyme
and the very best of choruses to
follow all the drudge and sadness.
I know that better things are on their way.


I know you got a lot of good things happening up ahead.
The past is gone, it's all been said.
So here's to what the future brings.
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.
I know tomorrow you'll find better things.

No promises, no guarantees, not wanting it, not needing it. I would like it and I hope that at sometime in the distant future it will come. Not tomorrow, but one tomorrow be it weeks, months or years down the line I hope that I find better things... Or rather, that they find me because I think I've got to stop looking and start living.

2 comments:

Chana said...

as always you inspire all of us. thank you for that.
good luck. take care. stay happy and healthy. i love you. i will miss you. read you when i get back. i shall try to be as brave as you and not be so darn nervous....hugs my friend.

sair said...

hey honey, i'm home! :) JST sounds more promising than I allowed myself to think when you texted! :D ... catch up soon!! xx

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